I’m a day late. Sorry! I am in the midst of finals week, and my brother came home yesterday. I haven’t seen him in almost 10 years ! (Military, not jail). I didn’t manage my time well, so I’m a day late but I’m here!
But I almost didn’t show up for other reasons. Here’s why. By nature I am not a quitter. I will hold on for dear life and fight like Ali and Tyson before I throw in the towel. Sometimes I fight so hard, the fight ended and I didn’t even know. But lately, I’ve been met with so much opposition, I’ve wanted to give up. Especially things dealing with my purpose. It’s one thing to find your purpose. It’s another thing to walk and work in your purpose. But it’s a whole notha otha when you are in your purpose and you feel alone there. I yell hello and I hear echos. What’s a girl to do?
I wonder where is the support? Where are my when I NEED support. God always has a way of turning these moments into a workshop on my relationship with Him. Why am I worried about who pats me on the back? And is it a need or a want? It’s human nature to want support, but if I’m in purpose then God has graced me to stand alone, and I am where I need to be.
God is concerned about how faithful I am to Him and what He told me to do. When I am more focused on the people that do or don’t support me, I am putting them above God. I am putting their opinion above God’s opinion. I am putting their “Good Job” ahead of God’s “Do this”. I don’t want to do that. I want to keep up-building God’s Kingdom, one sis at a time. I can’t do that being worried about others. It’s a new level of faith for me to train in. How faithful am I really?
And because God is so gracious, even in this hard lesson, He allows an email from a random stranger, encouraging me to continue writing, because my writing encourages her. When God tells you to move, then move. What God tells you to do, do. There will probably be opposition attached, discouragements along the way. And there will definitely be things sent to pull your focus in the total wrong direction. The enemy uses those things to make you doubt your purpose, doubt your calling, doubt that you should continue. But if you let Him, God can use it to show you weak areas that He can make strong. He can teach you to rest in the fact that He is all you need. Being obedient to His calling is important! Being a good steward over what you are doing now, will lead to greater. Stay the course!