So I told you all how I had an anonymous blog. I was reading through it today and this one stuck out. Hope you enjoy!!
It’s amazing how we often times have more faith for other’s situations than we do for our own. My 9-5 can get pretty stressful. I am in constant talks with people who are frustrated with lack of funds, or closed out of opportunities that they are in dire need of. More than one person has had that high pitched frantic voice and tears running down their face saying “I don’t know what I am going to do”. I always calmly reply “Ok…calm down…it’s going to work out. Let’s figure it out…”. I see that their situation is dire. I know that they are in desperate need. I also know that what I say to them is true: It WILL work out.
I was in their shoes yesterday. I was in tears. I was a little frantic. I had lost focus of who was in charge (again) and took a long look at my situation. My whole speech became “how am I gonna…” and “I don’t know how…”. I spent all of praise and worship in worry. Yes there was praise. Yes there was worship. But there was also worry. It hit me: I can’t fully experience worship when I allow worry to settle in. I can’t fully rest in His presence. I can’t fully enjoy His peace, His joy. It is human to worry. “Uh oh” is natural. But my maturity in Christ tells me to take that “uh oh” to God and leave it there. I often times take it to God, tell Him all about it, say amen, then pick it up with me and carry it throughout my day. That creates stress lines. I don’t need those! I need peace. That’s where my faith steps in.
A recent talk with a minister at church made childlike faith simplistic, where I was making it hard. His words made me think of my children. They don’t worry about bills or food or clothes. They know that I will provide. So instead of asking “will there be enough for dinner today?”, they ask “Can we have lasagna for dinner? And garlic bread? And salad?”. They know that they will eat. And even if their specific meal request isn’t granted, they know that they will get food. Sometimes their requests are big: “Can we have steaks for dinner?” Or “Can we go out to eat for dinner?”. That’s BIG faith. The minister reminded me: that’s how God expects me to behave. I can go to Him and make my requests known and then trust that He will supply. Big requests, little requests, it doesn’t matter. He may not supply the way I asked Him to, but it will get done. Philippians 4:19 says “My God will supply all my needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”. I need only ask. And believe. Matthew 9:29 says “…According to your faith will it be done to you”.
When I was a little girl my mother used to close every prayer with “we believe and we receive”. How appropriate. I believe that He will supply, and I will receive the supply. And in the meantime, my faith is working! “ because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”. James 1: 3 & 4.