I was a little down yesterday, and it was my own fault. I hate when I know better, yet I allow my feelings to dictate my outlook. At this point, that is such a #duh for me, but when the test came, I failed. I was a little whiny with God. I was a little weepy. I text my sissy. Through tear filled, blurry eyes, I text out my complaints, my hurt feelings, my questions, my angst. She responded with “I get it…but….God says….”. I quickly decided I did not like her anymore and stopped texting her. She kept texting. Ugh!
By the time I got home, I was a sad pitiful mess. I’m a lover of all things music, and usually have something on while I fix dinner. Yesterday was no different as I searched for something to tickle my ears. I ended up with a new gospel cd I had yet to hear. The first few lines were confirmation of everything that sissy had text me earlier. Immediately I was convicted, but also overwhelmed with thankfulness. Even in my bad times, even in suffering, even when I am a sad pitiful mess, even when I am in my feelings, God sure does take care of His girl. I stayed in worship for the WHOLE cd while preparing dinner. By the time it was ready, I was good.
If I had turned on some good r&b, what would’ve happened? I would’ve shuffled and two-stepped grooved maybe. But when the songs ended I would still be sad. Maybe even sadder. Because the songs would have spoken to my situation in a negative way. (SN I am not against r&b. I love it. But there is a time for it. When my spirit needs to be encouraged is not that time). If I had turned on my 90’s music Pandora station, I would have been coerced into thinking I was a thug and called some folk up and cussed them SMOOTH out. “You hurt my feelings?! I hurt yo feelings! FOOL!” (do thugs talk about hurt feeling? Idk).
The Bible speaks on guarding your gates. What you see and hear affects your inner you.
Luke 11: 34-36 Your eye is the lamp of your body; when your eye ([p]your conscience) is sound and fulfilling its office, your whole body is full of light; but when it is not sound and is not fulfilling its office, your body is full of darkness. Be careful, therefore, that the light that is in you is not darkness. If then your entire body is illuminated, having no part dark, it will be wholly bright [with light], as when a lamp with its bright rays gives you light.
The shows we watch, the sites we look at….even who we entertain can create thoughts in us that eventually turn into actions if we are not careful. The same goes for what we hear. Be careful what you allow people to speak over/into you. We have all heard the example: you tell a kid that he is stupid over and over again and he will believe he is stupid, and behave as if he is stupid. On the contrary, if you tell a kid that he is smart over and over again, he will believe that he is smart and behave as if he is smart.
In 1 Samuel 16, Saul was King and he was a mess. Angry, bitter, tormented…a spirit God had put on him. David, an anointed man of God and a pretty dope musician (and soon to be King), played the harp for the King, which soothed him. Anybody could’ve played the harp. But because David’s heart was pure and after God, that anointing flowed through his music. Powerful, right? 1 Samuel 16:23 Whenever the spirit from God came on Saul, David would take up his lyre and play. Then relief would come to Saul; he would feel better and the evil spirit would leave him. See? Gospel music….music that glorifies God, also brings relief to us!
Our mouths, what we say, is also a gate. Potty mouths aren’t cute or lady-like, but they also go against the power we have as Christian women. If you curse your situation, your situation will be cursed!
Job 22:28 You shall also decide and decree a thing, and it shall be established for you; and the light [of God’s favor] shall shine upon your ways.
Decree means an official order issued by a legal authority. Synonyms for it include mandate, proclaim, command, order. We have authority in Jesus Christ to command and proclaim God’s word over our situations, our circumstances….ourselves, our loved ones. When we choose to speak negatively, it is a gross misuse of the authority we have in Christ Jesus and it also shows a lack of appreciation and respect for what God has gifted and placed in us.
I knew when I texted sissy that the words I was choosing were wrong, even before I hit send. But I was so in my feelings, and so into getting my whiny point across, that I ignored every point I have made in this post. Thank God for grace! Thank God for that cd. And thank God for an open heart.
Guard your gates! It affects your thoughts, your heart and eventually your behavior…